the pursuit of you part 2: if you told me to wait again i would

 

If you told me to wait again, I would

Lord, I've cried and cried, barely holding onto patience,

For a bride of my own, one to love, to cherish, and to hold,

Finally ive found her whom my heart loves under your guidance, I've obeyed and followed your direction, done all I was told. 

Years have I waited, searched, but could not find,

A woman worth more than rubies, and gold, and silver that does not last.

A woman, my heart would be safe in her hands, and hers in mine.

Till the day you brought her to me, and I had a companion all of my own at last.

But Lord, if it were all gone tomorrow,

Praise would still be yours, with all I could, 

Your plans for me are good, so I would not weep for sorrow, 

But worship on my lips, if you told me to wait again, I would.

Lamentations 3:25 (ESV)
“The Lord is good to those who wait for him, to the soul who seeks him.”

Psalm 37:7 (KJV)
“Rest in the Lord, and wait patiently for him: fret not thyself because of him who prospereth in his way…”

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sometimes the bravest thing is to surrender all to God and trust the Creator above our own desires

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while i wait part 2: sacred vow

 

The sacred vow

Lord, you once whispered that you were to be my husband, for a time, all others are just brothers. I ignored it. Assumed I heard incorrectly. 

Surely this was not the path you carved out for me. This isn't what I meant when I asked you and prayed for a man. 

Words instead of touch. Presence instead of a kiss. And an anticipation that grows, like something greater is coming…soon, where we meet face to face. 

I asked for a king, but you showed me You ARE my king. I made idols of false gods. You showed me that what my heart craved for was YOU all along. 

You gifted me this heart to live loved and love well. You first, then others like me. 

You anointed these hands to be a balm to the weary soul, and maybe plant a seed that will grow to make them whole. 

I see the world with the Spirit. I don't see flesh and bone but something holy. Something Sacred. Something too beautiful for words, but I'll try anyway.

I take now this vow…

To worship only you,

To love you first, most, to trust, keep the faith. 

Even if my life doesn't unfold how I imagined. And love you still, even if it does. If this is just a season to show me how a man should love me, if I'm blessed with one.  

I come to you not as a sister, nun, or in a convent; that's not my calling, bless them, but I do bring my heart, tattered, beaten, and battered as it is. I vow to always, always choose you first. Forever and always. 

I said I was ready for love. But love already found me. I lay to rest the girl I used to be, and finally embrace…. arriving. I blossomed without a man on my arm; I will continue to shine whether or not a babe was born of me. It's not giving up, it's prioritizing. First things first, and all else shall be added to me. 

I won't wish for mythical tomorrows, and unsure “one days”. I won't dwell on regretted yesterdays and “could have beens” either. I'm choosing instead to stay rooted in today. I'm choosing now…to stay. 

Thank You, Father, your daughter is listening. Amen

*Author's note: The “Him” responses in this book are not presented as new revelation, prophecy, or additions to Holy Scripture.

They are poetic meditations—an imaginative, prayerful response drawn from the character of God as revealed in Scripture. These words are meant to echo biblical truth, not replace or expand it.

All authority belongs to the written Word of God. Where God speaks definitively, He has already spoken in Scripture.

This work is offered as a devotional reflection, written from a human perspective responding to God’s revealed promises, not as divine speech itself.

● Hosea 2:19 – 'I will betroth you to Me forever; Yes, I will betroth you to Me in

righteousness and justice, in lovingkindness and mercy.'

● Matthew 22:37 – 'You shall love the Lord your God with all your heart, with all your soul,

and with all your mind.'

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when we surrender our life to God, its not giving up on hopes and dreams, but trusting the one that knows better than us and knows whats best for us. Delight yourself in the Lord and He shall give you the desires of your heart. *even if they may or may not look the way we wanted them to.

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