While i wait final part, part 8: i am unashamed of the garden of her life

 

I am not ashamed of the garden. (man's perspective)

I am not ashamed,

of the garden God planted across the story of her life,

From her scars, the darkness of her skin. 

I’m just grateful

to be allowed beside her.

Near her valley lows and mountain highs. 

I am there to catch her and hold her through it all. 

My hands handle with care, 

No caution but praise, 

She is the wife of my soul,

And

my spirit.

I cry, not for sorrow but for joy.

There’s a prayer on my lips,

poured out loud,

always near to her heart.

Her scars tell a story of a once-hurt woman now healed and redeemed. 

She falls to her knees and praises God.

Then rises with me, hands clasped.

A queen in her own right, one I am honored to stand beside.

And I have never wanted anything

more than I want to be beside

her.

Here.

Now.

Her scars never bothered me;

They summoned me. Humbled me. Called me forth. 

I want her beauty,

her ugly,

her fire and her ash.

I want the holy hush

after her praise.

And I want to wake up,

To the woman, she is

long after the mask 

Has fallen. And still choosing her.

Inhale.

A Selah.

Exhale.

Amen.

● Genesis 1:31 – 'Then God saw everything that He had made, and indeed it was very

good.'

● Isaiah 61:3 – 'To give them beauty for ashes, the oil of joy for mourning, the garment of

praise for the spirit of heaviness; that they may be called trees of righteousness, the

planting of the Lord, that He may be glorified.'

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being fully known and still chosen is precious

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While i wait part 7: in the eyes of my husband

 

In the eyes of my king, my husband, my covering

Then,

Too small in stature,

Too reserved,

Too quiet a spirit,

Not enough. 

Now,

Too large in presence,

Too proudly black,

Too honest,

Too loud in spirit,

Too much. 

But in his eyes?

I'm everything he prayed for.

Sturdy enough to stand beside him,

Soft enough for him to trust his heart to. 

This time? It's not just about me; it's his turn to be treated like the king he is. 

The invitation is to be spirit to spirit.

a soul meets soul, 

And they worship God together.

Second to God, he's my everything. 

The one my heart calls out to,

The one I've dreamed of as a child. 

This man, my husband, my covering, 

His heart is safe with me. Forever..

● Ephesians 5:25 – 'Husbands, love your wives, just as Christ also loved the church and

gave Himself for her.'

● Proverbs 18:22 – 'He who finds a wife finds a good thing, and obtains favor from the

Lord.'

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proverbs 31, the husbands heart should be safe with his wife.

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while i wait part 6: song of songs revisit

 

Song of Songs a revisit

Our hearts met at dawn, held in holy halo.

Rising early for reverence.

We move as one in our praise.

Turn down the lights; this isn’t a performance, but a whispered prayer.

He met me halfway, giving in equal measure.

Praying before hands ever touched, so softly.

Squeezing my hand, to love not possess,

Rubbing his fingers across my knuckles to ground me. 

Me? I’m gentler now, before the day can weigh me,

I offer you sweetness, not disguise.

The softened step within my strength,

I come to you bearing soul this early morning.

Now? We pray. 

A husband, a wife, a man, a woman. 

Two kindred spirits, 

ordained souls from the beginning of time. 

Each lovingly crafted by the Potter's clever hand,

She aims to set fire, 

Watch the arrow of love, finally land,

This is a tale of a unified couple, finally realized.

A small prayer, for God to bless and grant our supplication.

And eyes wide in wonder, 

Truly, they both now understand Adams awe,

Bone of my bone, flesh of my flesh, unified unit.

● Song of Solomon 8:6 – 'Set me as a seal upon your heart, as a seal upon your arm; for

love is as strong as death.'

● Ephesians 5:31-32 – 'For this reason a man shall leave his father and mother and be

joined to his wife, and the two shall become one flesh. This is a great mystery, but I speak concerning Christ and the church.'

*****

husbands love your wives as Christ loved/loves the Church.

eyes wide in wonder for the holy union of Man and Woman. Husband and Wife.

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While i wait part 5: queen bee

 

Queen bee

Oh yes, it's me again, come see,

Here to shake the world, baby,

There's only room for one queen bee,

And I'm the blueprint, not a copy.

I dance to the beat of my own drum.

You're shook, you've been thunderstruck.

A vagabond on the run,

Not from something but to something better, 

ordained, not luck.

Alright, I'll slow it down a bit,

put the brakes on down for ya.'

From a boil to a simmer,

 How you figure,

That anyone can be like me, a redeemed sinner.

Christ took away the shame,

A reclaiming of self now is the cause.

And yes, sista got sass in personality. This is no game.

Here comes the applause,

Positivity chant,

Never tell a woman redeemed that she can't.

● Judges 4:9 – 'So she said, “I will surely go with you; nevertheless, there will be no glory

for you in the journey you are taking, for the Lord will sell Sisera into the hand of a

woman.”'

● Micah 6:8 – 'He has shown you, O man, what is good; and what does the Lord require of

You but to do justly, to love mercy, and to walk humbly with your God?'

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not about pride, but humility and strength of character again. knowing who you are in Christ.

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while i wait part 4: more than a body

 

She's more than a body. 

Watch me walk, watch me stand,

I'm not at all ashamed, it's promise, not chance.

A little praise stomp makes the earth shake,

Ya girls' holy hollers of praise in battle bring the earthquake.

Body crafted reverently with grace and care,

Love and kindness in her stare.

Brown skin, blessed by the sun.

I make others give pause at a confident woman who doesn't run.

I ain't sorry,

That I'm much more than a body ody ody, baby!

● 1 Samuel 16:7 – 'Man looks at the outward appearance, but the Lord looks at the heart.' ● Psalm 139:14 – 'I praise You, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made; marvelous are Your works, and that my soul knows very well.'

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Man may look on the outside, God is more concerned with the heart, its the character of a soul that brings honor. 

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While i wait part 3: woman that is me

 

Woman, that is me

I'm not the norm,
Not a gentle storm,

I walk like thunder,
My presence fills the room,
no hinder.

I'm a bright light in a dark world, you see?
The grace on my lips,
The jiggle of my laughter,
The tremble of praise on my breath.

My joy shines bright when I walk,
No apologies, let them talk.

My soul doesn't whisper,
She roars louder.

Hearty appetite for the holy, and even bigger heart,
My inner being a work of art.

I make no apologies,
And you ask for none.
I fall on my knees before the king, coming undone in prayer.

War marks on my skin,
I trace them in wonder and grin.

Dark skin kissed, scorched by fire like burnt bronze,
Shine in the daylight.

A laugh, loud and free,
Unmistakably ME..

You prayed for this, the honesty, the reverence for our king, the soft heart and gentle spirit. Something you've never known you needed.

I dream of a love so pure.
Of a man's unhesitant hands, strong and sure, taking mine.

Him slowly exploring the depths of my soul, not my body.
No shame in being ourselves, he thinks I'm an odyssey.

He'd like my laugh, and the smile upon my lip,
He'd long to drink my laughter in, take a savory sip.

He can look beyond just what the eyes can see,
He'd look deep into my eyes, and yes, considering my imperfections and still see the worth in me.

Walk with me, boy, and watch this.
My life is a garden inviting you in, I am a woman holy, redeemed.

He wouldn't shrink that I wasn't made to be dimmed.
Not meant for my faith to be contained.

I was born open and free,
My confidence says loudly, woman, that is me.

● Proverbs 31:25 – 'Strength and honor are her clothing; She shall rejoice in time to come.' ● Song of Solomon 4:7 – 'You are altogether beautiful, my darling; there is no flaw in you.' She More Than the Body ● 1 Samuel 16:7 – 'Man looks at the outward appearance, but the Lord looks at the heart.' ● Psalm 139:14 – 'I praise You, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made; marvelous are Your works, and that my soul knows very well.'

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knowing who you are is rooted in Christ, celebrating strength of character over idolizing the body. and still honoring the body as the temple of the Holy Spirit.

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